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Sunday, 23 February 2014


Just when I thought that I would be able to accept that humans are good, they start showing me their worst side again. Just when I gain a little faith in humanity, the people ensure that I question the humanity in them.

There are books and research papers written about humanity, and a humanistic school of Psychology. They believe that all humans are born good. Maybe so, but they all turn bad too. Ok, most of them turn bad. people blame circumstances for it. Alright, you have to change with time, but for the better, and not to become bitter.

 We all have our fifty shades of grey. But why show all the darkness in you? Why can't you find the light? Is your life so miserable that you can't see others happy?

If your life is miserable because of others around you, then stay away from them. If you are the cause for another's misery, just because you can't see them happy, then you're the bigger sadist. Your depression forces you to become a sadist or masochist. If you have such people around you, they'll never let you be happy.

So I suggest, stay away from them. Maintain a certain physical distance, then you will develop a mental distance. But they will always be on the look out for targets to bully. But you, always have to stay safe. Humans can destroy your life, and those you trust the most, are the ones who are capable of this. So you're enemy may keep a constant eye on you, but your friends will always know how to hurt you. I don't deny that there is some good in this world, but there are vicious people on this planet, who have various complexities.

So do not expect humans to grow wings and become angels. Jealousy, anger, hatred can create damage on a large scale. So do not trust humanity, but hope that someday, someone will help you.


Thursday, 6 February 2014


What do you believe in? God? Humanity? Satan? Astrology?

In an era where you can carry your TV in your pocket, there are those who still believe in God and astrology. I'm not of them. Not anymore at least. When I questioned many who believe in the above mentioned list, as to why they believe in it, their response was the same. "You need something to believe in, so why not this? Besides, you're too young to understand."

I find the above statement absolute nonsense. Ten years from now I may repeat the above statement to someone, but to focus on the present, I'd like to say, I believe in myself. A psychological experiment called 'Internal external locus of locus' helps a person determine whether they are intrinsically or extrinsically motivated. My result: Significantly intrinsically motivated. I have logical reasons for believing in myself.

1. God - Scenario- Class 8th, Moral Science class- I prayed to God that day that I would've taken all the books to school, so that I don't get punished. But to my horror, I didn't bring my Moral Science book, and let me tell you, my Moral Science teacher  was absolutely terrifying. You can guess how many major panic attacks I had that day. This is just an illustration of one of the many incidents that's happened in my life. So, why waste time praying?

2. Humanity - I haven't figured how good or bad humans really are, so I'll rule it out.

3. Satan- He may exist, because there are a lot of people who claim to use black magic. But I think that we all have latent satan is in us, ready to come out, when the time comes. When he is inside us, then why worship him?

4. Astrology - A supposed wise man once told me, 'You're novel will be published by the end of your 20th year'. Sadly, I've written only 8 chapters of my novel, I highly doubt this will happen, because I'm realistic.

Why I believe in myself. No matter how hopeless I feel, I have this unwavering faith that I will make it through alive. Somehow, someway, I knew I would survive. Ever since I was kid, I lacked confidence. But now I have faith, in myself. The two terms are different, because self-confidence is a miniscule concept, in comparison to faith.

To me, faith is God, Astrology, Satan all in me. That's the difference between me and everyone else.